These words are my diary screamin' out aloud...

sunkisses24 @ 2006-10-02T23:11:00

2006-10-03T03:11:45Z

i forgot about livejournal completely.... until tonight.

soooo i just wanted to say hey to everyone out there and see how you guys are doing?!?! i miss feeling like i know exactly whats going on with my tally crew!

ps- hahahah ward works at patlive! thats hilarious! (do i know one of these "crushes" by chance???)

just following the trend...

2006-03-02T03:57:45Z

the Questioner
Test finished!

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

Be direct and clear.
Listen to me carefully.
Don't judge me for my anxiety.
Work things through with me.
Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
Laugh and make jokes with me.
Gently push me toward new experiences.
Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six

being committed and faithful to family and friends
being responsible and hardworking
being compassionate toward others
having intellect and wit
being a nonconformist
confronting danger bravely
being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six

the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often

are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents

are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
worry more than most that their children will get hurt
sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please RATE it :-)

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose CY

Would you rather have chosen:

AY (EIGHT)

BY (FOUR)

CX (TWO)

CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 0% on ABC

You scored higher than 59% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

hahaha made me laugh

2005-12-07T03:20:37Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September I didn't flush (-1 points). Last week I donated bone marrow to ucfchiocowgirl in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last month I ruled Iran as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In June onesweetllama and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In January I bought porn for tircha23 (-10 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-400 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
sunkisses24

HEADIN' OUT WEST

2005-11-25T20:51:59Z

im going to cali for spring break!!!!! i've never been west of the panhandle (of FL, that is).... but come march 11th, im going all the way baby! im pretty much stoked. soooo march 11- 19 i'll be residin 8 miles outside of laguna beach. how bout them apples!?!?

do it to it!

perfect in our imperfections

2005-11-14T23:50:52Z

it'll never be perfect
they weren't perfect
you aren't perfect
and i'm definitely not perfect
two imperfections will never make perfection
we're teasing ourselves, you're teasing me
it was close but we let go
because of the imperfections that may have been
our closest shot at perfection
i shined so bright when you were around
but i blindfolded myself
and told myself the light was gone
and i was back in the darkness
the blindfold is off
and through the darkness i can see
a faint light in the distance
chase that speck of hope?
or wait for morning to come
and for my world to be bright again?

sunkisses24 @ 2005-10-25T23:52:00

2005-10-26T03:56:00Z

i have nothing to write and its one of the most refreshing feelings.... pretty much indescribable- hence the whole not having anything to write. :)

but i do miss u buddy!!! yes- you!

sunkisses24 @ 2005-10-17T01:42:00

2005-10-17T05:47:00Z

i think i owe my bestest friend another "thank you" for comin down this weekend! its always so refreshing to spend time with my siamese twin! now that we're seperated from each others hips, we gotz ta catch up on life every so often. it means the world to me that you take time out to come visit! it really does. thanks again & ill SEE YA IN 2 WEEKS!!! ;) love ya

awww.... wheres my "Loverboy?"

2005-10-11T03:47:03Z

The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Your exact opposite:
Genghis Khunt

Random Brutal Sex Master

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: xobrit84

mandi- i introduce u to gin, u introduce me to a tite song. fair enough.

2005-10-10T06:17:44Z

LetDown
(if im not mistaken, this was recently performed by Linkin Park... or just chester from LP...? somethin like that. bottom line is LP is the titest, this song is tite & i've missed those screamin fools!)

And the tears fall like rain
Down my face again
Oh the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start

Oh the winter and spring
Going in hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Oh this brand new skin stretched across scared terrain

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

All those years down the drain
Love was not enough
W hen you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart

'Cause I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

sunkisses24 @ 2005-09-26T18:14:00

2005-09-26T22:16:31Z

i just wanted to thank everyone that came down this weekend and also thank all those who couldn't make it but still managed to wish me a happy birthday! you guys all made my day very special! i love birthdays! oh and its pretty cool to be able to buy alcohol. now what do i have to look forward to? 25- rental car? right? OOOOOKKAAAAAYYY!!

sunkisses24 @ 2005-09-16T00:40:00

2005-09-16T04:44:08Z

ok, so maybe im just a HUGE loser, but i think this is really cool...

i took this quiz that i got in an email from T.G.I.Fridays [first sign of loserism]. it consisted of those "choose your favorite out of these 2 options" type questions, and though i was timed (which i got all worked up about [second sign of loserism]), i answered very honestly. look at the statement i got upon completion-

"Born to be Mild: Chilling on the beach, deep in conversation, lost in thought. You've got a lock on mellow, and it's all good."

does anyone see a connection?
AHHH I LOVE FOOD... ((drifts off into a dream about eating @ Fridays).:.(wakes back up, realizing you guys are still reading)) ...QUIZES!

:)

...back to writing papers and not sleeping...

sunkisses24 @ 2005-09-13T12:14:00

2005-09-13T16:34:34Z

A - Age you lost your virginity? holler for waiting

B - Band listening to right now? fuel- falls on me (takin it back to the old school...)

C - Dream car? the one in my garage... my b-e-a-utiful 4 runner

D - Dads Name - richard

E - Easiest person to make laugh? lauren aiken, ashley snipes, or michelle hakemoller

F - Food you miss most? huey's & all my moms good ole home cookin

G - Any encounters with ghosts? oh geeze... mostly in my dorm and @ amelia's beach house, but they always seem to follow kelley and i. maybe in that sense, its better we dont live together anymore- they have to split up now to haunt us!

H - Person most hated at the moment? myself for eating and sitting around 24/7... but i have my first IM flag football game today!!!!

I - Interesting unknown fact about yourself? this isnt very "unknown" but im the most indecisive person you'll ever meet... and VERY critical of myself/ lack self-confidence

J - The first letter of the last person who broke your heart? my hearts never been broken like THAT

K - Kissing with eyes opened or closed? closed

L - Last time you did LSD? never

M - Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute? antigua nite ;) but its quite ironic because theres so much i DONT REMEMBER about that night...

N - Nicknames? B, Bevis, Kweetz

M - most valued posession? roxy & my blankey

P - Poison of choice? when i turn 21 i'll actually get to try new things... for now i usually stick to screwdrivers

Q - The last quote you heard? "Today see if you can stretch your heart and expand your love so that it touches not only those to whom you can give it easily, but also those who need it much."

R - What are you allergic to? nothin

S - Song you sang last? you and i both- jason mraz

T - Time you woke up? 11-ish ;)

U - Favorite pair of underwear? i <3 all my underwear... but i guess my fav are the latest ones from AF

V - Vegetable you hate most? asparagus. ive never eaten it, but the smell makes me gag.

W - What are you the most afraid of? being abandoned and/or hurt deeply by someone i care very much about

X - X-rated love life? im gonna go with G right now... ya know, like a hug. haha how lame

Y - Year you were born? 1984

Z - Zodiac Sign? Libra

damnit boy, this is good!

2005-09-07T19:17:02Z

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet ucfvet82? thru kristin
2.~What would you do if you had never met tircha23? never eat tite food, come up with tite sayings, or just be tite
3.~What do you honestly think of ren107? i wish i could smile as much as she does.... and she deserves so much more credit than she gives herself
4.~Would or did sunkisses24 and lifeguardhank go out? hahahahahah!!! this quiz is nuts!
5.~Have you ever liked loveontherocks7? umm... she was tite back @ good ole swift creek!
6.~If jahjahwarrior55 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? he's one of the best people to talk to about anything
7.~Would februarystars11 and daytonadrinker make a good couple? they both LOVE alcohol... so yeah maybe....
8.~Describe lilbagel in 3 words: tall, smart, smiley
9.~Do you think benshivar is hot? of course
10.~Would jahjahwarrior55 and dontwasteit make a lovely couple? ummmm not so sure thats gonna happen
11.~What do you think of when you see lifeguardhank? "he's about to hug me"
12.~Tell me something humiliating about daytonadrinker: he used to be katie geeker's lover
13.~Do you know any of daytonadrinker's family members? all of 'em
14.~What's daytonadrinker's favorite color? must have 2- garnet and gold
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is krst693? 23
16.~What would you do if vacoop just professed their undying love for you? laugh uncontrollably
17.~What language does sunkisses24 speak? english, ebonics & sign language
18.~Who is kizelley going out with? patrick marie barton
19.~Is pinkworld17 a boy or a girl? girl
20.~Would itsalloneword and vacoop make a good couple? the best couple
21.~Who do you think alpinesumo would be great with from this list? dontwasteit
22.~When was the last time you talked to benshivar? we had a dispute via LJ comments about a month ago
23.~What is loveontherocks7's favorite band? probably someone really cool
24.~Does februarystars11 have any siblings? im gonna go with no...
25.~Would you ever date daytonadrinker? nah
26.~Would you ever date lilbagel? nope
27.~Is alpinesumo single? i dunno... is he?
28.~What is daytonadrinker's last name? bell
29.~What is itsalloneword's middle name? umm i've heard it, but cant recall it
30~What is ren107's fantasy? to have a wild passionate night with that new braves baseball player
31.~Where does pinkworld17 live? all the way across freaking town!!!
32.~Would you make out with ucfvet82? nah, kristin gets the job done
33.~Are tircha23 and daytonadrinker best friends? not really
34.~Does lilbagel like daytonadrinker? dont think she knows him
35.~How did you meet itsalloneword? thru gingie, but i remember him from high school
36.~Is benshivar older than you? no way dude
37.~Is dontwasteit the sexiest person alive? hell yes chicken head

sunkisses24 @ 2005-09-06T13:36:00

2005-09-06T17:47:42Z

woe is me. very successful weekened in tally hizzle. very long weekend in tally hizzle. maybe thats why i feel like it was successful. i actually had time to spread out amongst my peeps. i saw a majority of my friends, which is much better than i usually do when i've only got less than 2 days to work with. i got to see kel and pup friday night, went to the uf game saturday, beach sunday, CARRABBAS sunday for my sisters bday, pre-parties for monday's intense football extravanganza, then tailgating and more partying monday. did i mention i didnt have a single alcoholic beverage the entire weekened? im still amazed. i think i was the only sober person driving down tennessee street all weekend. no alcohol and i still had a good time. oh, and fsu won.... which is actually what i wanted (contrary to how i reacted when miami dove across that endzone line... its just like an instinct to love seeing fsu being scored on... but i really did want them to win. it makes my friends happy, so as long as its not UF, go fsu!) eewwww i cant believe i just said that.

so now its only appropriate to announce my 21st plans...
if you're in tally and you know someone that knows me, hitch a ride with them & come on down! my 21st bday is saturday, sept 24th and i dont care what we do, i just wanna order drinks and have allllll my bestest buds right there with me. i already know several people driving down from the 850, so holler @ them and work something out! it'll be great fun!
if you're in orlando, you have no flippin excuse! you better be out there! end of discussion.

i heart everyone i saw this weekend! thanks for making it a good time! i'll miss you all more than you know, so please come down and visit for my bday! that'd rock my world!

sunkisses24 @ 2005-09-01T17:50:00

2005-09-01T21:58:18Z

dear readers,

first of all, hello again! now down to the nitty-gritty: so heres my predicament... what little gasoline that is still left in this region of the country is like a bizillion dollars a gallon.... and i've been planning on driving to tally for this LOOOONG weekend. not only tally, but gainesville for the florida game saturday & the beach sunday. soooo- i've got a little over 3/4 a tank right now. i should be fine as far as getting to tally. but what happens when i get up there, then theres no gas for me to get back down here? im at a loss. if anyone has any insight to this extreme problem, please enlighten me. i'll pay $3/gal if i've got to, but i just wanna make sure there is some to get me home. STUPID HURRICANES!!! i guess im lucky this is the only way it has affected me... there's far too many homeless people out there due to this storm for me to be complaining about not being able to drive home. but seriously- this sucks.

sincerely yours,
brittany snow brafford

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-23T20:55:00

2005-08-24T01:07:07Z

its amazing how the sound of a familiar voice, a voice- a time- a place- i miss so dearly, can make me feel like my heart is beating in my throat, make my eyes fill and burn, and make my mind completely blank other than the thought and feeling of that voice, time and place. i wish i could forget. but how do i just forget when all i can do is remember..

maybe you were all faster than me
we gave each other up so easily
i feel so far from where i've been
so i go, and i will not be back here again
im gone as the day is fading.....

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-23T01:33:00

2005-08-23T05:35:51Z

i bought a desk for $39.97 at walmart tonight, and its the most amazing piece of furniture in my room! i put it together myself, and im very proud of my work. it almost looks not $40ish. almost. anytime you get the chance, you should come down and see it. its worth the trip, i promise!

exceptional math skills... thats what im talkin about! ;)

2005-08-19T01:41:59Z

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-17T00:22:00

2005-08-17T04:23:20Z

if u really wanna see the pics ive been trying oh so hard to successfully post, click here

they're entertaining, i promise!

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-16T21:12:00

2005-08-17T01:16:50Z

warming up for the final heat

shes done it! indoor wakeboarding champion of the world!!

reppin the oldies! my lips dont exactly look like those of a white girls... and my hurrr is out of control! oh well, would u expect anything less after the ultimate indoor wakeboarding competition? make note of the tally marks on my hand as well. that must be factored in as well.

all in all- very successful night. thanks for posting these lauren. thanks a lot....

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-15T14:29:00

2005-08-15T18:38:30Z

well im back in orlando and this is the first time ive been able to successfully pick up a wireless signal from one of my oh-so-generous neighbors. shhh!!! cable and internet will be hooked up NEXT monday... so another week with just channel 6- cbs. i wanna watch laguna beach tonight!!! gosh dangit, i had almost forgotten! what agony! roxy spends most of her time under my bed being antisocial. the rest of the time she's normally walking around kinda whimpering. its sooo sad. she misses all her friends, bugs, yard, etc. in tally. shes been really good though. i just hope she forgets what shes missing soon. i cant deal with watching her being sad too. we had a little going away party for jason last night. its gonna be REALLY sad when he leaves. but i guess all of these trials and tribulations we're going thru are just those stinkin life hurdles that we gotta either get over or keep falling on our face. i miss all of you in tallahassee soooo much! please come and visit! i'll buy you tony romas! ;) MWAH!

THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG!

2005-08-08T18:07:14Z

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.

and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.

why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.

:Im:Leaving:Next:Thursday:

2005-08-06T06:59:03Z

i think im suffering from what i call "seasonal depression." everytime i have to leave either tallahassee or orlando, i get all depressed right before its "over." its never REALLY over, but when u go back its always different. i just feel like i have to start over everytime i leave one place and try and jump back into my other life. i've never been one who's all about starting over. that whole clean slate thing has never meant much to me because i was never one to dirty mine in the first place. i always kept things pretty clean. i'd rather have the deep roots and the people who know and love you, rather than a bunch of strangers, or what some might call "opportunities". dont get me wrong, my friends in orlando are irreplaceable, but there's just something about the folks you've made 20yrs worth of memories with. it just occurred to me: "provide these lovely people with a timeline of your bi-polarism" so here ya'll!
Summer 03- excited but sad/worried about leaving home for the first time
Fall 03- hate being away from home, wanted more than anything to come back
Spring 04- got used to being away, but then i realized it was about time to come home for summer
Summer 04- worst summer of my life. nothing was goin for me. lacking friends, hated work, family drove me crazy after being used to living on my own, but i did enjoy tcc.
Fall 04- constant ups and downs. drank a lot. decided to move back to tally. got accepted to fsu. had my classes picked out. changed my mind last minute for some stupid reasons.
Spring 05- the majority of my friends consisted of the tally crew from winter break. came home a lot doing stuff with those peeps. then things got weird. stayed in orlando as much as possible. never thought i'd enjoy tally again for oh-so-many reasons.
Summer 05- such a memorable summer in tally-hizzle. the family's been great. roxy's become a real dog. i got to work pretty much when i wanted. some people i never expected to be very close to again, have suddenly popped back in my life full-force. i'll miss them when i'm gone. i'll miss watching roxy chase bugs in the yard. i'll miss lunches with friends everyday. i'll miss calling my mom every night to ask what the dinner plans are. i'll miss getting ragged on by my sisters 24/7. i'll miss being right where everything i want in my life is. i have about 5 days to finish up here. so now what?

ps- i really want another tattoo but i dont think i could get another one. i was driving down tennessee street last night alone and glanced over my shoulder at capital city tattooz and was quite tempted. i was just in that mood, ya know? the mood where u know u have NO IDEA what you're thinkin, but you're thinkin it, alright. if i got another one i'd just fall into that "ya cant get just one" category. i swore i could withstand the temptation to be jabbed repeatedly by a rapid-firing needle. but theres just something so appealing about the whole process. so tonight i was being gay and drew one on with sharpee to just try and get it out of my system. but now i really like it. shoot. ok, well thank you guys for listening. this was a long one about.... well..... nothing really. so thanks.

sunkisses24 @ 2005-08-02T10:47:00

2005-08-02T14:49:38Z

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as mportant as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someon e sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

hahaha

2005-07-27T20:28:53Z

How to make a brittany

Ingredients:

1 part friendliness

3 parts courage

5 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add caring to taste! Do not overindulge!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com