These words are my diary screamin' out aloud...

i forgot about livejournal completely.... until tonight.

soooo i just wanted to say hey to everyone out there and see how you guys are doing?!?! i miss feeling like i know exactly whats going on with my tally crew!


ps- hahahah ward works at patlive! thats hilarious! (do i know one of these "crushes" by chance???)

the Questioner Test finished!

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX. "I am affectionate and skeptical" Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative. How to Get Along with Me Be direct and clear. Listen to me carefully. Don't judge me for my anxiety. Work things through with me. Reassure me that everything is OK between us. Laugh and make jokes with me. Gently push me toward new experiences. Try not to overreact to my overreacting. What I Like About Being a Six being committed and faithful to family and friends being responsible and hardworking being compassionate toward others having intellect and wit being a nonconformist confronting danger bravely being direct and assertive What's Hard About Being a Six the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations Sixes as Children Often are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent Sixes as Parents are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence worry more than most that their children will get hurt sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You liked the test? so please RATE it :-) You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose CY Would you rather have chosen: AY (EIGHT) BY (FOUR) CX (TWO) CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on ABC You scored higher than 59% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In September I didn't flush (-1 points). Last week I donated bone marrow to ucfchiocowgirl in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last month I ruled Iran as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In June onesweetllama and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In January I bought porn for tircha23 (-10 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-400 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich! Sincerely, sunkisses24

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im going to cali for spring break!!!!! i've never been west of the panhandle (of FL, that is).... but come march 11th, im going all the way baby! im pretty much stoked. soooo march 11- 19 i'll be residin 8 miles outside of laguna beach. how bout them apples!?!?

do it to it!

it'll never be perfect
they weren't perfect
you aren't perfect
and i'm definitely not perfect
two imperfections will never make perfection
we're teasing ourselves, you're teasing me
it was close but we let go
because of the imperfections that may have been
our closest shot at perfection
i shined so bright when you were around
but i blindfolded myself
and told myself the light was gone
and i was back in the darkness
the blindfold is off
and through the darkness i can see
a faint light in the distance
chase that speck of hope?
or wait for morning to come
and for my world to be bright again?

i have nothing to write and its one of the most refreshing feelings.... pretty much indescribable- hence the whole not having anything to write. :)

but i do miss u buddy!!! yes- you!

i think i owe my bestest friend another "thank you" for comin down this weekend! its always so refreshing to spend time with my siamese twin! now that we're seperated from each others hips, we gotz ta catch up on life every so often. it means the world to me that you take time out to come visit! it really does. thanks again & ill SEE YA IN 2 WEEKS!!! ;) love ya

The Sonnet Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf) Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed? Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. Your exact opposite: Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so. You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls. ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth CONSIDER: The Loverboy Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: xobrit84

LetDown
(if im not mistaken, this was recently performed by Linkin Park... or just chester from LP...? somethin like that. bottom line is LP is the titest, this song is tite & i've missed those screamin fools!)

And the tears fall like rain
Down my face again
Oh the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start

Oh the winter and spring
Going in hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Oh this brand new skin stretched across scared terrain

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

All those years down the drain
Love was not enough
W hen you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart

'Cause I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

i just wanted to thank everyone that came down this weekend and also thank all those who couldn't make it but still managed to wish me a happy birthday! you guys all made my day very special! i love birthdays! oh and its pretty cool to be able to buy alcohol. now what do i have to look forward to? 25- rental car? right? OOOOOKKAAAAAYYY!!

ok, so maybe im just a HUGE loser, but i think this is really cool...

i took this quiz that i got in an email from T.G.I.Fridays [first sign of loserism]. it consisted of those "choose your favorite out of these 2 options" type questions, and though i was timed (which i got all worked up about [second sign of loserism]), i answered very honestly. look at the statement i got upon completion-

"Born to be Mild: Chilling on the beach, deep in conversation, lost in thought. You've got a lock on mellow, and it's all good."

does anyone see a connection?
AHHH I LOVE FOOD... ((drifts off into a dream about eating @ Fridays).:.(wakes back up, realizing you guys are still reading)) ...QUIZES!

:)

...back to writing papers and not sleeping...

A - Age you lost your virginity? holler for waiting

B - Band listening to right now? fuel- falls on me (takin it back to the old school...)

C - Dream car? the one in my garage... my b-e-a-utiful 4 runner

D - Dads Name - richard

E - Easiest person to make laugh? lauren aiken, ashley snipes, or michelle hakemoller

F - Food you miss most? huey's & all my moms good ole home cookin

G - Any encounters with ghosts? oh geeze... mostly in my dorm and @ amelia's beach house, but they always seem to follow kelley and i. maybe in that sense, its better we dont live together anymore- they have to split up now to haunt us!

H - Person most hated at the moment? myself for eating and sitting around 24/7... but i have my first IM flag football game today!!!!

I - Interesting unknown fact about yourself? this isnt very "unknown" but im the most indecisive person you'll ever meet... and VERY critical of myself/ lack self-confidence

J - The first letter of the last person who broke your heart? my hearts never been broken like THAT

K - Kissing with eyes opened or closed? closed

L - Last time you did LSD? never

M - Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute? antigua nite ;) but its quite ironic because theres so much i DONT REMEMBER about that night...

N - Nicknames? B, Bevis, Kweetz

M - most valued posession? roxy & my blankey

P - Poison of choice? when i turn 21 i'll actually get to try new things... for now i usually stick to screwdrivers

Q - The last quote you heard? "Today see if you can stretch your heart and expand your love so that it touches not only those to whom you can give it easily, but also those who need it much."

R - What are you allergic to? nothin

S - Song you sang last? you and i both- jason mraz

T - Time you woke up? 11-ish ;)

U - Favorite pair of underwear? i <3 all my underwear... but i guess my fav are the latest ones from AF

V - Vegetable you hate most? asparagus. ive never eaten it, but the smell makes me gag.

W - What are you the most afraid of? being abandoned and/or hurt deeply by someone i care very much about

X - X-rated love life? im gonna go with G right now... ya know, like a hug. haha how lame

Y - Year you were born? 1984

Z - Zodiac Sign? Libra

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )

woe is me. very successful weekened in tally hizzle. very long weekend in tally hizzle. maybe thats why i feel like it was successful. i actually had time to spread out amongst my peeps. i saw a majority of my friends, which is much better than i usually do when i've only got less than 2 days to work with. i got to see kel and pup friday night, went to the uf game saturday, beach sunday, CARRABBAS sunday for my sisters bday, pre-parties for monday's intense football extravanganza, then tailgating and more partying monday. did i mention i didnt have a single alcoholic beverage the entire weekened? im still amazed. i think i was the only sober person driving down tennessee street all weekend. no alcohol and i still had a good time. oh, and fsu won.... which is actually what i wanted (contrary to how i reacted when miami dove across that endzone line... its just like an instinct to love seeing fsu being scored on... but i really did want them to win. it makes my friends happy, so as long as its not UF, go fsu!) eewwww i cant believe i just said that.

so now its only appropriate to announce my 21st plans...
if you're in tally and you know someone that knows me, hitch a ride with them & come on down! my 21st bday is saturday, sept 24th and i dont care what we do, i just wanna order drinks and have allllll my bestest buds right there with me. i already know several people driving down from the 850, so holler @ them and work something out! it'll be great fun!
if you're in orlando, you have no flippin excuse! you better be out there! end of discussion.

i heart everyone i saw this weekend! thanks for making it a good time! i'll miss you all more than you know, so please come down and visit for my bday! that'd rock my world!

dear readers,

first of all, hello again! now down to the nitty-gritty: so heres my predicament... what little gasoline that is still left in this region of the country is like a bizillion dollars a gallon.... and i've been planning on driving to tally for this LOOOONG weekend. not only tally, but gainesville for the florida game saturday & the beach sunday. soooo- i've got a little over 3/4 a tank right now. i should be fine as far as getting to tally. but what happens when i get up there, then theres no gas for me to get back down here? im at a loss. if anyone has any insight to this extreme problem, please enlighten me. i'll pay $3/gal if i've got to, but i just wanna make sure there is some to get me home. STUPID HURRICANES!!! i guess im lucky this is the only way it has affected me... there's far too many homeless people out there due to this storm for me to be complaining about not being able to drive home. but seriously- this sucks.

sincerely yours,
brittany snow brafford

its amazing how the sound of a familiar voice, a voice- a time- a place- i miss so dearly, can make me feel like my heart is beating in my throat, make my eyes fill and burn, and make my mind completely blank other than the thought and feeling of that voice, time and place. i wish i could forget. but how do i just forget when all i can do is remember..


maybe you were all faster than me
we gave each other up so easily
i feel so far from where i've been
so i go, and i will not be back here again
im gone as the day is fading.....

i bought a desk for $39.97 at walmart tonight, and its the most amazing piece of furniture in my room! i put it together myself, and im very proud of my work. it almost looks not $40ish. almost. anytime you get the chance, you should come down and see it. its worth the trip, i promise!

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Average

if u really wanna see the pics ive been trying oh so hard to successfully post, click here

they're entertaining, i promise!

warming up for the final heat

shes done it!  indoor wakeboarding champion of the world!!

reppin the oldies!  my lips dont exactly look like those of a white girls... and my hurrr is out of control!  oh well, would u expect anything less after the ultimate indoor wakeboarding competition?  make note of the tally marks on my hand as well.  that must be factored in as well. 

all in all- very successful night.  thanks for posting these lauren.  thanks a lot....